It's been a bad day

I really wasn't feeling it today. I got a little moody at work and got pissed at the things they had me doing, and a specific co worker was being an asshole. I heard a customer say something mean about me when they thought i couldn't hear. to top it all off, my rat, seraphina, died tonight, unexpectedly. She was fine yesterday, and my brother called me saying she wasn't moving. i went home and held her and she was freezing and shivering and wouldn't lift her head, but was still breathing. after trying to force feed her, bathe her in warm water, and give her water with a syringe, she started seizing and eventually passed while i was holding her. It's been a really fucking awful day.

“I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am nowhere. Nothing is happening and I am getting more and more sad.”

I AM GOING BACK TO DISNEY IN JANUARY FOR 5 DAYS I AM SO EXCITED I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY EXCITED! I HAVE SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO NOW! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!

College

being in college has been pretty easy so far, but i really haven't been challenging myself. i've actually been pretty lazy. but now i'm looking into transferring and i really want to go to the university of montana. it's so pretty, and it would really be a change of scenery for me. they also have a fabulous education program. the only thing that concerns me is that it's almost thirty thousand dollars a year. so that would put me 120k in debt by the time i graduated, plus the 10k or so ive spent at county. it's soo stressful :( i can't wait to read this blog 24 years from now with my children and laugh at myself. i really hope i can.

House Sitting

I'm at Dylans house watching his dog over night while his parents are visiting him up at rutgers new brunswick. Today is also championships for my brother and the AHS marching band and i am so unbelievably sad that i'm not there. I just got off the phone with Joe and he said they did so well and thinks they have a realllllly good chance at winning! He says they were, and i quote "Tight." oh, joseph.
       chelsea's here keeping me company. She's pretty cool. i guess. ew. nevermind. bye.

Switching over

WOW! it has been SO long since i posted anything on this blog. to be honest, i forgot that i even had it. blogging was something i inherited through a friend back in high school, but i never really hung on to it much. I have a lot going on right now, and i'm getting nothing but negative vibes from the ever so popular Tumblr.com, so i figured i'd give this a shot.
 So let's see what has changed since my last blogging experience.

1. i am now a junior in college
2. i have completed a College Program working in Disney World
3. my parents have gotten divorced, and my mom is now engaged
4. my dad is still the same
5. I live in new, much smaller house
6. my brother cut off all his hair
7. he has a new girlfriend
8. i have a dog now, named Shyla, and she's a siberian husky
9. i am probably close to 30 pounds heavier, but hey, it happens and i'm working on it

So now, we start blogging. Let's see how long this keeps up! Here's to a happy blogging life!

me then:

me now: