i'm disgusting

i sometimes repulse myself.

Hellooo s u m m e r

Summer has officially begun. Now i know it technically started once school let out, but summer consists of nothing but theater for me, and until theater started, it was just a break from school in my mind. So today was the first day of theater, and it was a blast. I love my cast already, we're really small, and i think once the awkward bubble that surrounds the first few days of theater pops, we'll be pretty tight. They may be young, but they're at that perfect age. No one talks. I know i'll later bite my words. But it's cool.
      We played the toilet paper game. Where you take as much toilet paper as you like, and then tell the kids that for every sq. of toilet paper they have, they have to tell us something about themselves. Poor mike thought it would be funny to take like half the roll. haha he was soo mad when he found out what it was actually for.
             I'll post the cast list tomorrow :)

The power of prayer

Remember my last post about Ellie. Well, Ellie Shoal Potvin is no longer with us. She died this morning, June 23,2010, at 11:35am, in her mothers arms. After her hip tumor burst two nights ago, the doctors sent sweet Ellie home to enjoy her final moments not hooked up to any machines and to be around the people that love her. The doctors had estimated that Ellie wouldn't make it through the night. I periodically checked my twitter, looking for any sign that Ellie had gone to be with God.
      I eventually fell asleep. The next morning, i woke up, only to see she was not only alive, but talking, too. Truly a miracle. I then vowed that i wouldn't sleep until Ellie had gone to be with God. So last night, June 22nd, 2010, I did not sleep. I stayed up all night, and am still awake now. I attempted to take a nap around 4am when Amy, Ellies mom, posted that she would not be on for a few hours. It didn't work very well. I instant messaged a few friends asking them to pray, and they did. And Ellie made it through yet another night. I lit a candle around 5am for Ellie, and said a prayer.
         I really do believe it is because of the continuous prayer that Ellie got over the last two nights that she made it that far. After her mother told her that it was okay to fly home, Ellie Shoal Potvin left this earth to be free from pain, and sit in her 19 story mansion with all of her parrots and dolphins.

Ellie Shoal Potvin

Oh! Just so i don't forget. Please pray for Ellie Potvin. She's 8 years old and fighting a vicious battle against cancer. It tears me apart inside to know that right now, tons of kids are fighting cancer, and some of them are losing the fight. But i don't think Ellie is going to lose. I've been following her on twitter for a while at @liftupellie and i just have a feeling she's going to kick this cancers ass. She deserves to. She's a beautiful little girl, and deserves the very best in life<3 please pray

So this is really it

So basically, it's goodbye junior year, and hello year of decisions. It scares the living hell out of me. I really wish i could just go back to preschool where the hardest decision was which crayon to choose to trace your hand with. It truly is amazing how fast time flies. To anyone reading this, if you are young, live your life while you can. Well now it kind of sounds like i'm dying. But really, try your hardest in school, and don't give up.
               The seniors at my school graduate tomorrow. Its so weird think that next marking period, i won't be walking the halls with my favorite seniors anymore. Ugh this is really too much for me to handle.

But for now, i have to concentrate on my last final, which should totally be a breeze. Summer starts on thursday<3 hellooooo theater<3

I'm gonna go bawl my eyes out now. cya

6/10

Oh, my gosh. today was my last full day as a junior in high school. thatmeans that in like three months, i will be a senior. i'm going to die. Soooooo i'm so ready for summer, that it's ridiculous. It should be a really good one, or atleast i hope it will be. This year has just been so stressful, that i'd like to think i actually deserve a nice summer. but with my luck, it'll be horrible. Whatever.

6/7

I feel so different. I feel like that i am becoming the person that i lamented about previously in my blogging career. I have changed, and i'm not sure that it's for the better. I rarely talk to people anymore, because every little thing that people do, annoy the hell out of me. I'm constantly so easily irritated, and the people of audubon, well lets just say that they are pros at irritating me.
          It's also becoming quite clear to me that i am hated. me. i never thought i was a mean person, but apparently i do "mean" things to people, and it brings them down. I feel really bad that i'm mean without  knowing it. If anyone out there is actually reading my blog, and knows of some sort of way that i can not be mean, please tell me; because i didn't think i was a mean person.

  OH! Today, I introduced Hannah and Stave (Steve) to Hershey pies for the first time, and we came to a general consecus that it was like an orgasm in your mouth. A pure explosion of awesome-ness. So you, yea you, reading this post; GO GET ONE NOW! They're at burger king for like 1.79$ or something like that, but it's SOOOO worth it!

 Finals are rapidly approaching, and my grades are spiraling downward! MUST. DO. BETTER!